I really miss the people that used to be in my life.

The people that were able to give me joy and happiness all at once. The ones who actually were there for me when I needed someone to talk to. Ones that I actually thought they won’t ever leave me hanging there when they tell me they won’t ever leave. But I guess I was wrong about that too.. in the end, they did.. and I really missed the people that were once in my life.

It’s hard to let go of something that you held on for so long.

I wish someone would actually take the time to understand me.

Crying out everything because you honestly don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m honestly tired of getting close to someone.

I can’t handle getting close to someone now because every time when I actually do get close with someone, I always end up being fucked over. I realized that once you get to know someone better, hang with them more.. the more problems you will have later on with that person. I’m honestly so tired of feeling like shit and things bothering me and can’t even tell that person about it.

Why does everybody tend to leave me?

I ask myself this practically every single day wondering why people leave me. This question tends to haunt me.. every where I go. I honestly just can’t figure out why they tend to leave me after awhile. All these thoughts would be in my mind trying to figure out what makes them leave me. Like am I doing something wrong? cause if I am can you tell me instead always leaving me.

Missing someone who doesn’t care about you anymore.

If only I could actually stop caring for once.

To stop caring for those who treated me like crap, push me away whenever they want. But can I actually stop caring and leave everything behind just like that? I’m just that person who’s always caring for others and always there for them whenever they need me but will they be there when I need them? or will I just be every other person.. a second option. If only I can let everything go and stop caring.. but I can’t.

I miss having someone there by my side.

Someone that is able to cheer me up instantly when I’m feeling down. Someone that knows how I actually feel when I vent to them. Someone that is willing to be there to listen, to lend a shoulder for me to cry on.. no matter if they’re busy, they’re willing to make time out of their busy schedule to be there. Nowadays, there’s really no one to count on to be there. I miss having someone there by my side.

Doesn’t it suck when..

Those types of days where you’re not happy but you’re not upset either. You’re just feeling average. When you just honestly don’t know how you’re feeling anymore like everything is breaking down inside of you. Like you feel like there’s something bothering you but you have no idea what’s bothering you anymore.. Yeah, I hate those kind of days.